Several months ago, I feel into the depths of depression. I don’t like mentioning it because I refuse to let it become my identity. However, I believe it was a necessary evil that ultimately led me further towards the world of spirituality. Growing up, I attended Christian schools that involved weekly services, hymn singing, and bible teachings. Other than that, there is no strong religious belief within my family. Nevertheless, I remember praying at night before bed, releasing my worries and expressing my gratitude. I guess it always reassured me to think that there’s someone guiding me along this rocky path called life.
For three years now, I’ve been trying to get into meditation. But like most people, I always end up giving up and deciding it’s not for me. I read several books on mindfulness, such as The Power of Now and The Untethered Soul, but I never applied the teachings into my daily life. It wasn’t until depression hit me like a truck that I scrambled back to meditation, desperate to try anything to get myself out of the dark hole. I dived into spirituality head-first and grasped onto all kinds of books to quench my thirst for peace in life. This opened up a brand new world: one where I could put my trust in the Universe; one where I began to notice daily miracles around me; one where I regained excitement for life.
Having said that, I’m not perfect and I’m still learning. There are definitely days where I’d rather throw my meditation pillow out the window than to sit on it in silence. But overtime, I’ve begun to notice myself feeling uneasy on days where I miss my morning meditation. I’m currently making my way through the sea of information on the topic of spirituality, and I hope to document that through this blog.
To anyone who is struggling to meditate on a regular basis, remember that it’s not that serious. Even 5-10 minutes of meditation a day can do wonders. I hope my journey has reassured you that it is alright to have setbacks. In fact, setbacks are a common feature in all aspects of our daily lives. These obstacles are set by the Universe in order to teach us lessons and to help us grow. So embrace it. Embrace the highs and the lows; the good and the bad; the silence and the noise. Most importantly, have fun.