As the year comes to an end, I’d like to reflect on all that has happened over the past 365 days. I’ve never been one to treat each new year like it’s a big deal, because like so many other things, it’s only a number after all. However, I have stumbled upon numerous gems this year that I’d like to share with the world.
I think this has probably been the toughest year out of the (nearly) 20 years of my existence. I know I’m young and still have much to learn. I may seem naive and childish to some, but I don’t think a person’s beliefs and opinions should be disregarded due to their age.
I have been lost – and found. Or maybe I am still finding. Only time will tell. Perhaps life is a never-ending journey of discovery; a chronicle of transformation. I have faced so many demons of my past. Old memories have come back to haunt me, reminding me that they are still here despite my previous efforts to shove them into the dusty corner at the back of my mind. Perhaps they’ll always linger, but at least I’m learning to befriend and not banish. Continue reading “2017.”
I’m not a fan of New Years Resolutions because 1) most of the time they don’t last and 2) you don’t have to wait till the new year to make a change. Having said that, I will write about my to-do list for 2018 – I’m a fan of those. (To be fair these are more-so reminders to myself of my core values in life.)
This one’s been on my list for years now. It’s a tough one to crack in this hectic world that we live in. I’ve read so many stories of how people one day have this ‘ah ha’ moment and master mindfulness. I often envy their ability to ‘reach inwards’ or to ‘see the light’ while meditation. Meanwhile, I’ve been going at it on and off for 2-3 years with no avail. To be fair I haven’t really taken it that seriously until recent months. I used to just nod off or daydream during my 15 minutes of silence in the morning. Continue reading “2018 To-do List.”
It is. It really is. I read something about how you never truly recover from a mental illness. You just learn how to cope with it overtime. Sounds a bit grim doesn’t it? I have not suffered anything near the amount of pain that some people have, and can’t even begin to imagine what life might be like. What I do know, however, is how difficult and exhausting it can be to not only fight against yourself but the rest of the world as well.
You know what makes you feel better. You know you should get up early; take care of yourself; do exercise; eat healthily; avoid stimulants; take your medication; go to bed early; and so on. You know that all those things equal happy you. Stable you. But you’re still human. You don’t always want to do those things. Some days you just want to stay in bed and be a potato. One thing leads to another and you’re back to the beginning again. Continue reading “Living with a Mental Illness is a Full-time Job”
I believe in miracles, magic and angels. You may call me naive or silly, but I call it being hopeful. Being hopeful despite the pain. Being hopeful despite the hurtful things people have said. Being hopeful despite every opportunity for me to give up. Being hopeful despite life knocking me down numerous times.
I believe that everything happens for a reason. That the Universe only gives you obstacles you can handle. That everything is a lesson. That the Universe always has your back.
I believe the Universe works with us, not against us. That we can manifest anything we want, as long as we ask for it. That we have to be our own greatest supporter, for there will come a time when no one else will do it for you. That any dream can be turned into reality.
I believe in miracles, magic and angels. You may call me naive or silly, but that is what got me through the tough times. That is what kept me going even though I was exhausted from fighting. That is what helped me see the light when the world seemed dark and empty. That is what lit a spark in me to do what I’m doing right now – to reach people through my writing.