As the year comes to an end, I’d like to reflect on all that has happened over the past 365 days. I’ve never been one to treat each new year like it’s a big deal, because like so many other things, it’s only a number after all. However, I have stumbled upon numerous gems this year that I’d like to share with the world.
I think this has probably been the toughest year out of the (nearly) 20 years of my existence. I know I’m young and still have much to learn. I may seem naive and childish to some, but I don’t think a person’s beliefs and opinions should be disregarded due to their age.
I have been lost – and found. Or maybe I am still finding. Only time will tell. Perhaps life is a never-ending journey of discovery; a chronicle of transformation. I have faced so many demons of my past. Old memories have come back to haunt me, reminding me that they are still here despite my previous efforts to shove them into the dusty corner at the back of my mind. Perhaps they’ll always linger, but at least I’m learning to befriend and not banish.
Discovery. Transformation. Change. So many different words to describe the same thing. But sometimes no dictionary can put together what the soul experiences. You just have to soak yourself in the murky waters of emotion until it turns clear again.
I don’t think anyone expected any of this to happen this year, I certainly didn’t. But sometimes life likes to play with us like that. It throws in all these curveballs, obstacles and traps at us. Perhaps it’s a test. To see how we react with things get hard. To see who are the ones who stay behind even when you become a burden. To show that there are still so much for us to be thankful for no matter what happens. To help us understand that there is so much more to life than items, appearances, and opinions.
As usual, I’ve just started spilling my thoughts out onto the page without much thought so apologies if this seemed a bit all over the place. I go through phases where I struggle to put things into words, then suddenly it all floods over in a discombobulated mess. But here’s to the next 365 days. Here’s to exciting things coming up in the near future. Here’s to closing old chapters and opening up to new beginnings. Here’s to staying hopeful and open to the world no matter what.