Thank you.

Taking a break from the deep rants today because I need some lightness in my life right now. I know I overshare on here a lot, but it’s become my outlet. This is where I am comfortable with being completely honest with myself. This is where I reveal all the deepest darkest secrets that I’ve kept to myself over the years (that sounds more dramatic than it actually is). Continue reading “Thank you.”

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Lessons Learnt from Sadness

Last week I wrote about the three stages of healing. It’s basically a watered down version of what I went through over the past few months. I feel particularly strongly about the last part, where I spoke about feeling your emotions in order to fully heal.

A year ago I was an emotionless robot. This year it all came hitting me in the face like a truck.

I didn’t know what to do. I’m the type who holds everything in no matter what. (Or should I say I was because I’m working on it.) All I wanted to do was drown in my sorrow. But people kept saying that I have to stay positive and that I’ll feel better soon. That did nothing but make me feel even more guilty for being that way. I hated being pitied on, like I was some kind of weak emotional wreck. Continue reading “Lessons Learnt from Sadness”

Let Go of Perfection

Since when did being chronically stressed become a badge of honour? If you think about it, our society has become so dysfunctional. We celebrate people who sacrifice their mental and physical health for the sake of achievement or success. While I fully respect people who work hard in order to reach their goals, I don’t think it’s necessary to go to the extreme. I love how social media allows people to share their success and reach a greater audience, but it has also created a rather unrealistic image of what our lives should look like. Continue reading “Let Go of Perfection”

Own Who You Are

For a long time, I lived in constant shame. Shame of who I was. Shame of what I did. Shame of what I enjoy. Endless shame. I found myself creating a false facade in front of people. I would change depending on who I’m with, which I believe is something that everyone does, but I hated how I would feel so fake. It’s exhausting. It’s hard enough being an introvert to put yourself out there with other people, but it’s even worse when you have to act like someone you’re not. I did that for so long that I eventually lost touch of who I was.

Continue reading “Own Who You Are”

The Three Stages of Healing

1. The Breaking

You will feel extreme sadness. You will think that life is just an endless torture. You will imagine how things could’ve been if only. Darkness surrounds you day and night. Some days you feel numb. Other days you just cry. The kind of crying that physically hurts. Like someone’s continuously stabbing you in the heart. Like you’re suffocating, struggling to stay alive. Yet the tears never seem to end. Even the smallest thing is able to trigger another breakdown. You try to be happy, but there is nothing to be happy about. Continue reading “The Three Stages of Healing”

My Safe Haven

This is where I’ve spent most of my mornings over the past month or so. Right in this spot. On this bench, overlooking the rest of the city.

This is where I go to escape from the rest of the world.

This is where I’m sat writing this right now, on a beautiful winter morning.

This is where I’ve read life changing books; meditated in the sun; listened to the sounds of nature.

This is where I met a lovely 82 year old lady, who didn’t hesitate to tell me all about her day.

This is where many puppies have come up to sniff around.

This is where I’ve witnessed many of life’s miracles.

This is where I’ve healed.

This is where I’ve found peace, even on the darker days.

I’m going to miss this place. My little piece of heaven.

Why You Shouldn’t Go on Another Diet this New Year

There’s only three weeks left of 2017, and I’m sure many of you are beginning to think of your New Years Resolutions. I’m just going to take a wild guess and say that the majority of people are planning on going on a diet or losing weight. Before you go ahead and do that, I’d like to share with you a story I call ‘The 3 Years of My Life I Lost Trying to be Thin’. Continue reading “Why You Shouldn’t Go on Another Diet this New Year”