Feeling Uninspired.

I haven’t posted in a while, and frankly it’s because I haven’t felt inspired. A lot of what I consider to be my best work in the past were written from my true emotion at the time. But the thing is, I only ever feel like writing when I’m slightly somber or down. Which is why, since my mood has improved drastically over the past month, I can’t seem to put words to paper without feeling fake or insincere. I started posting things that I thought might get views, instead of my usual rambly thoughts. It just didn’t feel like me so I stopped.

It reminded me of how we sometimes try to act a certain way in order to get other people’s approval. I lived that way for a long time, which only drew me further and further away from my true self. So I’m going to take my own advice and write what I want when I feel like it. It’s like how they say your hobby turns into a chore when you make it your job (or a least I think that’s what they say). I may stick to my schedule of posting three times a week, or I may not. It’s whatever I want. I will continue to ramble on about anything and everything whether or not people actually read it. That’s it.

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10 Before 20

As I am approaching my 20th birthday, here are 10 things that I’ve learnt in the past 20 years.

1. We are allowed to dream. But there are times when sacrifices have to be made in order for dreams to come true. It sucks, but you have to follow the rules if you want to win the game.

2. You can read as many philosophical books as you want, but you’ll still be broken if you don’t risk hurting yourself to pick up the shattered pieces. Working through emotions is painful – soul wrenchingly painful. But you gotta do what you gotta do.

3. Yes, other people’s photos may look pretty on the internet. But you’ll never get anywhere if you’re so busy obsessing over their lives that you forget about your own.

4. There is no rulebook for life. So do whatever you want no matter what people say. Own it while you’re at it.

5. You don’t have to be perfect. In fact, trying to be perfect was my downfall, like it has been for so many years. Make mistakes. Heck, make as many mistakes as it takes for you to get to where you want to be. Just make sure you stand back up every time.

6. The words that we have to hear the most can be the most difficult to accept. It’s easy to block out the world, to run away from everything when you’re hurting. But you’ll have to stop and face the truth somehow. It’s only a matter of time.

7. The magic happens in the in between – the grey area. The part where you get a bit of everything. The part where you get to experience all the ups and downs in life.

8. Maybe some of us are destined to be wanderers. We may not have everything figured out. We may not know what we want. But we know to follow our hearts.

9. What we don’t like about other people is usually related to what we don’t like about ourselves. The negative words that we say about others reveal more about ourselves than them.

10. The things that we worry about on a daily basis are extremely insignificant in the grand scheme of things. That plane you thought you might miss? When you worried about how you look in that dress? How many of those things do you still remember today?

The 10 Best Things in Life

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1. When you and your best friend happen to say the same thing at the same time.

2. When a book is so good that you stay up to read no matter how tired you are.

3. Getting into bed after a long and tiring day.

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4. Watching the sun rise on a beautiful morning.

5. Accomplishing something that you feel extremely proud of.

6. Cuddling an animal. Extra points if it’s fluffy.

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7. Listening to the sound of waves crashing onto the shore.

8. Reading something that resonates with you completely.

9. Seeing amazing people around you succeed when you’ve believed in them all along.

10. Being able to look back in life and remind yourself how far you’ve come.

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Quote of the Week

“Don’t surrender all your joy for an idea you used to have about yourself that isn’t true anymore.”
― Cheryl StrayedTiny Beautiful Things

Beautiful quotes like this makes my heart sigh. It’s like knowing that everything is ok and that you’re not crazy for feeling the way you are.

I was caught up in thinking how the past me would judge the current me so badly because I am so far from where I thought I would be now. But then my friend reminded me that people change and that’s ok. My 19 year old self had no way of knowing how my life would play out for the many years to come. Change is uncomfortable but I’m getting comfortable with the discomfort.

 

Book of the Week

Inward by Yung Pueblo

I admit, I have slightly cheated with this because it’s more-so a collection of poems than a book, which makes it an incredibly quick read. Nevertheless, I still wanted to share this since it is filled with gems of wisdom.

I’ve followed Yung Pueblo on Instagram for a while now. Not sure how I stumbled upon his work, but he is definitely an underrated poet on social media. All of his poems include messages that every single one of us need to hear right now. Here are a few of my favourites from his Instagram feed.

 

Photo of the Week

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This is a prime example of how I like to take photos of weird things. There was a gorgeous view of the ocean right on the other side of this. But no, I decided to turn around and take this instead. My favourite thing about photography is being able to show the beauty in things that people usually disregard.

 

Sonf of the Week 2

Gold Digger – Kanye West and Jamie Foxx

This is extremely random and completely unlike me. The song literally just came up as I was listening to an old ‘favourites’ playlist of mine on the way to the gym. It made me smile so I thought I’d put this in.

That is it! Have an awesome week everyone!

Weekly Snapshot 13.01.18

Hello my lovelies. I want to start this new ‘series’ where I list out a few of my favourites for the week. I’m not very good at explaining it so just read on…

Quote of the Week

Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go.

—  Nikita Gill

I feel like my subconscious resonated to this quote so much because I just got my wisdom tooth taken out earlier this week. It’s actually funny how relatable it is to my poor gums right now.

Anyway, this quote is incredibly powerful in its simplicity. It focuses on the need for us to heal ourselves and move the heck on. To not dwell on things that no longer serve us. Perhaps that’s a nice reminder for all of us to leave the past behind at the beginning of this new year. Our past does not define us. Continue reading “Weekly Snapshot 13.01.18”

2017.

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As the year comes to an end, I’d like to reflect on all that has happened over the past 365 days. I’ve never been one to treat each new year like it’s a big deal, because like so many other things, it’s only a number after all. However, I have stumbled upon numerous gems this year that I’d like to share with the world.

I think this has probably been the toughest year out of the (nearly) 20 years of my existence. I know I’m young and still have much to learn. I may seem naive and childish to some, but I don’t think a person’s beliefs and opinions should be disregarded due to their age.

I have been lost – and found. Or maybe I am still finding. Only time will tell. Perhaps life is a never-ending journey of discovery; a chronicle of transformation. I have faced so many demons of my past. Old memories have come back to haunt me, reminding me that they are still here despite my previous efforts to shove them into the dusty corner at the back of my mind. Perhaps they’ll always linger, but at least I’m learning to befriend and not banish. Continue reading “2017.”

2018 To-do List.

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I’m not a fan of New Years Resolutions because 1) most of the time they don’t last and 2) you don’t have to wait till the new year to make a change. Having said that, I will write about my to-do list for 2018 – I’m a fan of those. (To be fair these are more-so reminders to myself of my core values in life.)

  1. Be present

This one’s been on my list for years now. It’s a tough one to crack in this hectic world that we live in. I’ve read so many stories of how people one day have this ‘ah ha’ moment and master mindfulness. I often envy their ability to ‘reach inwards’ or to ‘see the light’ while meditation. Meanwhile, I’ve been going at it on and off for 2-3 years with no avail. To be fair I haven’t really taken it that seriously until recent months. I used to just nod off or daydream during my 15 minutes of silence in the morning. Continue reading “2018 To-do List.”